See original post here: Because I can’t anymore.

Diagnosis/conditions and current status of those * (assume all include prayer, and support from loved ones). Diagnosis are all from Physicians, unless noted.:

• Adult ADD moderately managed with deliberate habits and medication.
• Plantar Fasciitis, managed with stretching, proper shoes, etc…
• Fibromyalgia, mildly managed with medication, diet, physical therapy, chiropractic, mindfulness, rest, modified schedule and expectations (read: LOWERED expectations)
• Obese, according to a Harvard Chart * …and, sadly, not surprising. This is not something I thought I’d ever say. Not a ‘medical diagnosis’ because I think the doctors are too nice to say it out loud (they shouldn’t be. The one doctor who ever said a word about weight has, unfortunately, retired.)
• Depression. It’s not severe, though there have been some very, very bad days/weeks. And it’s well managed, at the moment, with medication. But it’s very real.

Basic Stats:

• Female, 44
• Married, 3 children (9,13,20), 4 pregnancies.
• Work at home, occasionally outside the home. Self employed.
• Diagnosis/conditions and current status of those (assume all include prayer, and support from loved ones. Diagnosis are all from Physicians, unless noted.):
  • Adult ADD moderately managed with deliberate habits and medication.
  • Plantar Fasciitis, managed with stretching, proper shoes, etc…
  • Fibromyalgia, mildly managed with medication, diet, physical therapy, chiropractic, mindfulness, rest, modified schedule and expectations (read: LOWERED expectations)
  • Obese, according to a Harvard Chart ** …and, sadly, not surprising. This is not something I thought I’d ever say. Not a ‘medical diagnosis’ because I think the doctors are too nice to say it out loud (they shouldn’t be. The one doctor who ever said a word about weight has, unfortunately, retired.) Notice I’m not sharing numbers here. I’m tall. The numbers don’t make sense based on what you ‘see.’
  • Depression. It’s not severe. And it’s well managed, at the moment, with medication. But it’s very real.

In the photos below, you can scroll them. The run about a 15 year span. I’m not sure I have them all in exactly the right order, but they should be pretty close. From my wedding day, to Christmas of 2019. Yes, I have more current photos, but they are mostly head shot selfies. If you’re bored, you can check out my social media to see more.

Here’s a general reference:

Wedding, 2004. Scissors – about 12 years ago-ish.

Pregant – 10 years ago.

Baseball – about 6-8 years ago.

First ‘Shipt’ photo (green shirt), about 5 years ago.

Shipt group photo, I think 3 years ago.

2018 t shirt – 2 years ago. Car photo with son around the same time.

Farm photo, October 2019

Shipt Park Photo, November 2019

Griswald, Dec 2019.

To be fair, I should probably find some photos to fill in 2017-2018 – I didn’t really find any – but, I think these make the point. Do you see the difference? Again, not in the weight, but in the light, and joy, and general fatigue? I think some people have a knack for seeing that.

So, there ya go! There’s me all laid out…so, let’s do this, ok? Will I share full body photos in a swimsuit or similar? Nope. I have no problem with those photos, I’m just not willing to share them publicly myself. That’s my choice. I will take some full body shots for a before/during/after/etc. But, see…let me remind you…this journey is NOT about the weight for me. I want the spark back.

If you questions, I’ll do my best to answer them. See ya soon with a little journaling!

Next Post in this series: https://messybunandgettingdone.home.blog/2020/05/28/because-i-cant-any-more-journal-week-1/

Much Love,

Cindi

*I think it goes without saying: I am not a health expert or physician. I am simply sharing my story. Any information, methods, practices, treatments, thoughts, etc share here are my own personal experiences and SHOULD NOT be taken as medical advice. Again, I am simply sharing my story.

*I chose this chart at random, as most people know and trust Harvard Data. I did compare the number to several other charts, including one from my own physician’s office. The all match up. Obese. High Risk